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It’s solar eclipse season aligned with a New Moon in Aries.
It is time to burn away the old and come back anew.
I have been away from my own personal work here on Nate Rox.
I want to give you all an update on life, you can watch my most recent video here (I have been away for 3 months!).
Amidst the LA Fires in January, getting into the trenches in my own life and joining a survival school (The School of Self-Reliance, founded by Christopher Nyerges in 1974), and ultimately practicing what I preach about becoming that superior man, I slowed down immensely with this Nate Rox project.
Do I regret it?
No.
I have been battle testing every lesson, every insight, every realization onto the material world.
Not in the digital space. Not in endless seas of regurgitated content. Not to funnel you into some BS product that you don’t need.
I’ve been becoming.
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I’m an Apprentice in Alchemy. Herbalist in training, and not just another guru.
What I’ve realized for myself is this:
When I work in the real world and collaborate, forge lifelong friendships, give to give (not because you expect anything in return!), and embody the values that matter to you most in this physical realm, you WILL experience the most growth.
Your life will begin to align in magical, mystical ways.
When I worked for myself, yes it’s always been in integrity and for the higher good of the collective, but I felt something was fundamentally missing. I felt a hollow. I felt alone. I felt my greatest gifts weren’t being leveraged properly.
Why?
Aren’t we told to work for ourselves?
Maybe it so happens to be how my astrological chart is set up (if you believe any of that), but mine in particular, is set in such a way that the greatest bounties are in the place of the other.
Which ironically has been one of my biggest struggles in life.
Most people now wouldn’t know this, and especially now, but most of my life I struggled with relationships and intimacy. The childhood wounds, the neglect, abandonment, and abuse I endured created a very fearful, distant Nathan.
I craved closeness yet kept the doors closed and the windows shut. Not on purpose, but an unconscious part of me was afraid. Intimacy meant pain and this human expression wanted to protect himself from that pain.
When I was told by astrologer Dalanah Smith (from Moon Matters) that I’d be most successful working for and with others, I wanted so badly to deny that! I wanted to prove it wrong. And there’s no doubt I could be “successful” by myself, but like I said, it never felt quite right. It didn’t feel fulfilling the way you think it would.
What I really had to do was get over my deep wounding. To trust myself to trust others. To discern who were the good people I want to entrust my hard work ethic and industriousness. To create a community. To heal myself. To feel like I had a place of belonging. To be open and exposed.
And if things go sideways?
Trust myself to learn the lesson and move forward with integrity and warmth.
What this world needs is more warmth, more leadership.
Especially for us men.
Don’t we desire to step up? To become that version of ourselves we know we hold within? To re-emerge?
Gentlemen, I think it’s that time to emerge.
Spring is here. A new cycle is upon us.
Let the fire cleanse what no longer serves us and re-align.
I am still here, working on this project. But for now my priorities have shifted away from serving only myself. I see a greater purpose at work here.
As much as I can, I will share those lessons here and build.
The Divine Masculine is the builder of this better world.
Before I leave this email, I wanted to share with you why I chose the word re-emergence and emergence.
If you don’t know this, I love music and it’s messages. I get insights, feelings, and realizations through music. One of my favorite bands, Sleep Token, released their new single “Emergence” on March 13 during the lunar eclipse.
Accidental? Not a chance.
Come on, come on
Out from underneath who you were
Come on, come out now
You know that it's time to emerge
The world is full of magic.
May we cross paths again and become better people because of it.
Until next time.
I’m Nathan and I am in the holistic healing space. I specialize in sacred masculine embodiment and holistic lifestyles. I do the dirty work, ranging from shadow work to subconscious reprogramming, and share my lessons here.
This space exists for the men journeying into this next stage of masculinity.
